Insipration in French Class

All it seems I want to do
I don't know why I feel like this
Is just think of you
Cause it's really nothing more than a kiss
So let me fall away
It's not something I can hold, that I can put around my neck
Don't let me see the day
But I can use it, always, to check
The light can't hide all that I've done
That you care, and that I matter
The dark hides my lacking sun
Even when I just chatter
It's everyday, all the time
But how do I know, when you've already had
That I remember that you are mine
My two friends, how do I compare to them?
It's black and white, not so clear
Did you treat them the same, better or worse?
Every bit of me sees you here
Why is it them that come to mind
All I can do, is imagine, me and you
When you hold me, and speak so kind
Not a choice that I tried to make, but only what I spake
And then you just think of getting caught
Was treason, what say I?
And my worrying, it seems, is for naught
When I regret, that look in your eye
When I told you what I've missed
Tells me that I've forgotten
You're just shocked, I know you can't believe it
You've never gotten that I'm the one
You've got the lines, and the touch
Whose ideas outrank my sun
Just a bit, it's not too much
Which has gone behind the cloud and back
When you wrap your arms around me
But never did I attack
It's like I'll forever be there in safety
That cloud
When you're gone, it's like I'm empty
Merely, ignore, worked around
The warmth that was there, gone
Lost, never found
When I'm with you, I realize how inadequate I feel
It comes and goes
I'm not the best, I'm undeserving
Gone longer than it stays
Of someone so special as you
A silence, so broken by that which I fight
The jokes you make, the things you do
I'll say it another way only if I can
Make me remember, everyday why I want you
But will it make sense
Sometimes, I wish you were here
To those who don't know what I am?
Others, I think it's better you're not
Each day, I try, to combat
You make it awkward, you make it odd
A waste a wretch, someone you know not
Trying to keep it all together
That's me, can't you see
I still come back
No one knows it, but really, I am
To that feeling you give me
I'm silent, but deadly, only to myself
Forbidden or not
It's not to be explained, only to be known
To those of you who were smart enough to look between the lines
That I am not what I seem
These are two different poems
Shocking as it is, it's true
The small one and the big one
When I'm not black, I'm blue
If you think you know who I mention in both
You've brought me out, I'm not a shell
Let me know.
You think you know me, but you can't
This is filler to make it all look the same
There's only one, and he's not mine
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He's ours, and I know she's broken
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It's hard, I can't think
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What should happen, if not, we'll sink
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But you're mine, and you understand
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The rest don't get it, and neither do I
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Sometimes
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You say the things I've never been told
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What I don't mind
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It's something odd, inside of me
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I knew, but I didn't
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I do, but I don't
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Much as I'd like to think I'm different
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I know that I'm not
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There's only two who think I'm special
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And to them only, am I.