Monday, April 30, 2007

All I can do is love you to pieces.

Current Mood - Clean, happy, tired-y/content
Current Music - Plus Rien - Les Cowboys Fringants

There's really not much to update. Kelsie and all them senior bandies from Abe came home today. I was very happy, as I missed having her to talk to. Tim came home today as well, which was also good, for the very obvious reasons.
In Social, I got my unit test back, and got 84%, which was above the average of 71%. And I found out that my band concert is not in fact the 28th, but the 16th. Still, let me know if y'all want to come.
I apologise for my entry yesterday. I was kind of hyper, and tired. And seriously missing all my traveling friends.

Quotes:
"Oh, at the cresendedo." - Chelsea

"Mezzo forte, is that louder than forte?" - Chelsea (for the musically uneducated, it's not.)

"I've added two cones (sorry ladies)" Dad, to me and Tara
*Haley, upon hearing this, promptly drops to the ground, and sits there*
(Dad) "Get up!"
(Haley) "I'm a cone!"

Sunday, April 29, 2007

Ha;eys boreeeed. And crazy.

Current Mood - Unhappy, but happy...hello oxymorons...or is it contradiction?...haha, CONTRAdiction... Contra Addiction ...haha...help...
Current Music - This is screaming, This is screaming, This is screaming... PHOTO OP!
(This is what you get when i don't update everyday)

Haley feels like writing, but she doesn't know what to write.
Haley's hair has been cut! She got rid of her layers when Swim & Dive started, but she's got them back now! Haley is very pleased about that.

Haley's friends are back from their various trips. Kelsie and everyone are back from New York. Haley missed Kelsie. Tim is still driving back from Whistler. When he was gone, Haley was sad, but at least she could text message him! Robyn's still at her...band thing, and Haley's forgotten when she gets back.

Haley's forced enough insanity on everyone, good night!

Quotes:
"Spencer don't play with it'
"What?"
"The box"
"That's not fun...or dirty." - Haley and Spencer in Science class.
"OMG box." - Haley
"C'mon baby light my fire" - aha, the Doors!! muahah, I lober them.
*men in white coats lift Haley up, and take her away, however they are too late, as this has been published*
Ha;eys next entry will be from the Happy Hotel!!!! Haley likes the bouncy room, and the pretty white jacket the nice men give her.

This has no title. Any suggestions would be appreciated.

Cause it's nothing I've said or done
It's just that life watched me go by
Sometimes I can't believe you could've been the one
Just the thought makes me cry

All I can do
Really, baby
Is stop thinking of you
And let him hold me, I'm his baby

The one you probably never respected
The one who never did for you
Cause it's breaking my heart
But not tearing me apart

You're only a shadow
Of what you could've been
Living your life next to me
And actually seeing me

Not treating me
Like I was worse, your inferior
Don't treat me as I am
But what I could be

All he sees in me
Is so much more than I can be
And all I've ever wanted
Was for you to get it

I watched you grow
From the little boy who stood next to me
To the young man that seems to forget his past
I knew it couldn't last...

Watching you
Following you
Wishing, hoping, praying
I could find it inside me

To say something
More than I ever could
Something
Just one moment of bravery

The one moment that never came
Because I never got the chance
When you showed who you want to be
No better, but fast approaching misery

And I still ask myself
How could this happen
Why did I drop my shield
And try to let you in

I missed so much
In so few months
I wish I could know you again
But I'm no longer that girl

He's changed me in ways
You never could
But he didn't make me
As strong as you did

Because for all I feel
I know there's one thing I can't forget
That I hate you
Because you could never love me

And this feeling will be long to fade
It's not something we can just erase
You've left my world
And he's running with me.

This is just something I wrote, that I didn't want to lose

Better watch your step girl
Cause one day it's gonna come outta nowhere.
And there's no way you'll be ready.
He's gonna watch, and wait, until you're through
Ready to give up, and yell 'screw you'
Then he'll be the best, and ever so kind
You'll see it coming
Bam, he's mine.
We're gonna watch and wait.
Until I'm through, until i'm done
And then, son
I'll be gone.
Goodbye, it's over, bonne nuit
No one could ever save me
Until now, I've never thought to stay.
Just hold my arms forever around you, and I'll never leave
Don't ever let go
Don't ever forget me.

Tuesday, April 24, 2007

How can words affect me so?

Current Mood - Sickish, angry, pleasantly pleased
Current Music - None, although I am listening to House.

SO I'm officially getting sick. I missed school yesterday because my body temperature was fluctuating, and my stomach was queasy, and I had a huge headache. Today, my throat is uber scratchy, and my nose is running faster than a sprinter. Plus, I'm really pissed at my mom, who insists on taking over my science work. It only annoys me becasue I'm a teenage girl, and my mother is trying to be a part of my life. What do you expect?
Anyways, yesterday was uber chill after I went home. I watched The Princess Bride with Nils, and then I watched Robin Hood; Men in Tights. Wicked movies. Soccer practice at 7pm, which was okay, we've got some new players, and that means we'll have an actual team!
Tim's getting me a ticket to Music n' Motion, which is awesome, cause like, it's Music n' Motion!! But, that weekend, I will have a Saturday piano recital, Sunday M n' M, and Monday, Band concert. Crazy music weekend eh?
Today I went to the Theatre Calgary play, The Overcoat. Wow, it was wicked. There was no dialogue, but they danced a lot, and used Dimitri Shostacovitch's music. It was amazing. I really loved the horns, when they came in, obviously. But the play was so cool. I won't describe it here, but I loved it.
So, lately, words have been really hitting me hard. Not nesscessairly bad, but definitely odd. I mean, one phone message made my day. The words on the page in front of me when I read make me think so much harder than I ever have before. I dunno, just random thoughts. But how can words touch me so?
That's pretty much all I have to update. Wow, quick one today.

Quotes:
"Your boobs are yours and Tim's alone!" - Spencer. I'll explain this one only to people who actually want to know.
"What'd you do Gympie?" - My neighbor Janet, when she came to look at Nils's possibly sprainend ankle, after he fell down the stairs.
"I want to date her right now!" - Morgan and Sarah, after Jessica told them what she did for Josh's birthday.

Sunday, April 22, 2007

Silicone sister with the manager mister; told me I got what it takes.

So today was a pretty wicked day. We went to Drumheller and to the Royal Tyrell Museum. Which I haven't been to in like, two years, so I really missed it. My favourite room is still the glass-bottomed one about the Precambrian organisms. I actually have a favourite Precambrian organism. *blush* Opabinia. It's a pretty wicked organism!!
I found a bracelet that I forgot I had today. It's got all the crests of Austria on it. It used to be my mother's and I think she got it from my grandfather, who was Austrian. It's quite nice, and I really like it, but it's too big for my wrist, and it keeps slipping. Ich liebe dich Opa.

Anyways, the band room will be locked on Tuesday, which will kinda suck, cause where will I go to leave it all behind?? And where will I talk to Robyn??

Quotes:
"Magic School Bus in Hebrew!!!" - Sean
Not real quotes today, sorry y'all.


Saturday, April 21, 2007

REVISION

Okay, you're allowed to Google again. But I think the rule is, you have to understand why I put it there. You'll get points just for trying.
Titles are now googleable, however, any BEFORE this post are not counted as points. The last post was from a song called, "King of Morning, Queen of Day" by Horselips.
I know this is an excellent revision Tim.

Friday, April 20, 2007

Love would find a way.

Current Mood - Strangely depressed and ecstatic at the same time
Current Music - Lay Down - The Bills
Bamfield's Johnny Uanden - The Bills

So, Thursday was a pretty nice day. At school, we started reading "Le Petit Prince" aka, "The Little Prince" in French class. I love that book so much. Science was lame, unsually so. Gym was actually quite good, even though we were doing volleyball, one of my least favourite sports. Social, we paniced a bit, cause I couldn't print the flag, and long story short, everyone's presentations kinda sucked, cause no one knew who was what country. I was very bored in FLA yesterday and today, so I just wrote some poetry.
After school, I re-made the Turkish delight, and went to the Drama Company thing at school with Nils, Tim, and Kelsie. Most of them were very powerful, and quite amazing. Congrats to everyone in it!!! My favourite part was most definitely "Addiction" preformed by Fanta. Wow, is she good. Second favourite was when Alex Oswell, a boy with Down Syndrome got up and preformed a piece about having Down Syndrome and being at school. I send some extra congradulations to him, it's hard just to get up there when you don't have any disabilites at all.
For some reason, they made Intermission 30mins long. I mean, Tom Sawyer was only 15. In the second Act, there was a little piece about parents. I reacted quite strongly to the girl talking about playing her sport, and parents not really accepting that. I know Tim noticed.
Friday was actually a pretty good day. I got to school at a decent time, so that i actually had time to hang with my friends.. Science and FLA were normal, a little crazy in science, and then FLA, I wrote some more.
Lunches are too short on Fridays. Only 15 minutes, but at least we get a lunch. Pauvre Tim =)
But I'm glad I sit next to Chealsea in band now. Much better than the end. And I really quite miss Sean and Tim. Vous deux sont mes meilleurs.

Insipration in French Class

All it seems I want to do
I don't know why I feel like this
Is just think of you
Cause it's really nothing more than a kiss
So let me fall away
It's not something I can hold, that I can put around my neck
Don't let me see the day
But I can use it, always, to check
The light can't hide all that I've done
That you care, and that I matter
The dark hides my lacking sun
Even when I just chatter
It's everyday, all the time
But how do I know, when you've already had
That I remember that you are mine
My two friends, how do I compare to them?
It's black and white, not so clear
Did you treat them the same, better or worse?
Every bit of me sees you here
Why is it them that come to mind
All I can do, is imagine, me and you
When you hold me, and speak so kind
Not a choice that I tried to make, but only what I spake
And then you just think of getting caught
Was treason, what say I?
And my worrying, it seems, is for naught
When I regret, that look in your eye
When I told you what I've missed
Tells me that I've forgotten
You're just shocked, I know you can't believe it
You've never gotten that I'm the one
You've got the lines, and the touch
Whose ideas outrank my sun
Just a bit, it's not too much
Which has gone behind the cloud and back
When you wrap your arms around me
But never did I attack
It's like I'll forever be there in safety
That cloud
When you're gone, it's like I'm empty
Merely, ignore, worked around
The warmth that was there, gone
Lost, never found
When I'm with you, I realize how inadequate I feel
It comes and goes
I'm not the best, I'm undeserving
Gone longer than it stays
Of someone so special as you
A silence, so broken by that which I fight
The jokes you make, the things you do
I'll say it another way only if I can
Make me remember, everyday why I want you
But will it make sense
Sometimes, I wish you were here
To those who don't know what I am?
Others, I think it's better you're not
Each day, I try, to combat
You make it awkward, you make it odd
A waste a wretch, someone you know not
Trying to keep it all together
That's me, can't you see
I still come back
No one knows it, but really, I am
To that feeling you give me
I'm silent, but deadly, only to myself
Forbidden or not
It's not to be explained, only to be known
To those of you who were smart enough to look between the lines
That I am not what I seem
These are two different poems
Shocking as it is, it's true
The small one and the big one
When I'm not black, I'm blue
If you think you know who I mention in both
You've brought me out, I'm not a shell
Let me know.
You think you know me, but you can't
This is filler to make it all look the same
There's only one, and he's not mine
This is filler to make it all look the same
He's ours, and I know she's broken
This is filler to make it all look the same
It's hard, I can't think
This is filler to make it all look the same
What should happen, if not, we'll sink
This is filler to make it all look the same
But you're mine, and you understand
This is filler to make it all look the same
The rest don't get it, and neither do I
This is filler to make it all look the same
Sometimes
This is filler to make it all look the same
You say the things I've never been told
This is filler to make it all look the same
What I don't mind
This is filler to make it all look the same
It's something odd, inside of me
This is filler to make it all look the same
I knew, but I didn't
This is filler to make it all look the same
I do, but I don't
This is filler to make it all look the same
Much as I'd like to think I'm different
This is filler to make it all look the same
I know that I'm not
This is filler to make it all look the same
There's only two who think I'm special
This is filler to make it all look the same
And to them only, am I.

Thursday, April 19, 2007

Scoreboard update

NEW RULE: YOU CANNOT GOOGLE THE TITLE, YOU HAVE TO GUESS IT YOURSELF. (Sean!)

Other than that, Sean's in the lead with 60 points
Everyone else, you'd better get on it!!

Wednesday, April 18, 2007

In a carriage by the motorway

Current Mood - Quiet
Current Music, Movement 2 - Gustav Mahler's 5th Symphony

Well, I've really been meaning to blog lately, but getting in the mood and mode is difficult.
Yesterday was a pretty normal day, except I didn't have piano after band, instead I had a refereeing course. It was just a refresher, dead easy. All we did was answer questions.
The debate room was fun yesterday, although awkward in the end. And technically, I ate in the hallway yesterday. I keep forgetting how much fun I have in there. For the record, and for those of you who don't know, Keenan, Kurt and Steven are all guys I've met only in the last month, all of whom are debaters. Just a reference for Sean.
Today was pretty sweet. I took the bus at like, 8, and it only took me 20 minutes to get to school. That's GOT to be a record for me. After that, things kinda didn't get better, except for some texting with Tim. =) Lunch was pretty good, and what really made my day was Kurt walking in partway though. I missed having his joility in science class, and well, I needed some good times. And I guess I got them. Rihannon kicked me in the knee, when I was trying to steal the hummus from Morgan, who stile it from Rihannon, Jason, Georgeanne, Kees and Sean. Yet another bruise to add. =) Not.
I skipped most of Social, mainly cause there's nothing to do. And Band was good times, except at the end when Mr. Waters told me I should join choir. Which I'm not sure if I want to do. I officially hate him. Never so ultimately as now. When I think of him, my chest tightens, and I have trouble breathing. Go die in a hole. A DEEP one, so that we'll never want to dig up your body. So what if I got new friends, you still treat me like dirt in the fucking band room. I HATE ....Well, ask me if you want to know.

Quotes:
"You shouldn't care about someone's sexual orientation" (Keenan) "Well, unless you're going to ask them out." (Sean)
"I'm not sure wether I'm laughing or crying" - Me, after Rihannon kicked me
"Grandma-like. Well, I've been called motherly, but grandma-like. That's a new one." - Me after Nils tells me to stop calling him kid.

35 points for today's title.
For the record, the scoreboard is as follows:
Tim - 50 points, a hug, and chocolate
Sean - 25 points
(Yesterday was only worth 5 points)

Tuesday, April 17, 2007

The sound of silence

Current Mood - Tired, but content
Current Music - None

Well, I have to say, yesterday was a pretty good day. I got to school waay too early, but it was alright. Bekah, Manda and Keenan joined me at pretty much the same time. There was a very large chocolate bar in the band room, which I enjoyed helping eating. Robyn's been having a crappy time, so I think chocolate was nice for her. =(
Nothing really to say about my classes, except that I had a sub in Sci, who's way of getting our attention was to sit at the front, glasses off, rubbing her forehead. I mean, I got that she wanted our attention, and I passed it on, but we're in grade 10, that's not what's going to work. You need to say something. Geesh.
Chelsea came back on Saturday, and it was nice to have a buddy to sit next to during band class, since apparently, I'm not good enough to sit next to Mariam anymore. We pretty much talked most of the class, I'm surprised Paddock didn't yell at us.
In social, my group pretty much left the class and photoshopped ourselves a flag. Furla left about 15 mins early, not that we cared.
Then, Hannah came over to work on our FLA project. We had to finish up with the Turkish delight. However, we didn't put enough gelatine in, so we had Turkish Delight Goop. (1 bloody pound of sugar!!!) W/e, I'll make another batch later.
Soccer practice last night. It was fun, but my dad taught a couple things wrong, aka, the warm-up. It's a brazilian style warm-up and i really like it.

Quotes:
"Angels and ministers of...dammit, something! I can't bloody remember." - Me, attempting to explain "The Curse of the Scottish Play"
"I just walk into a theatre and yell 'Macbaeth, Macbaeth!', and see what happens, even if that's not the play they're doing." -Spencer
'You have to leave the theatre, turn around three times, spit over your left shoulder-although, that might be salt-and you have to wait to get invited back in." - Sean

Wow, all Macbaeth themed quotes today.

Sunday, April 15, 2007

And I found out.

Current Mood - Happy
Current Music - Come Together/Dear Prudence/Cry Baby Cry - The Beatles LOVE

Well, today started off well, when my parents didn't even try and wake me up until 10:30. Ahh, I needed a break. Tim texted me right as I turned on my phone this morning, however that was only when I recieved it. He sent it at 8:15. *evil smile* I love sleeping in.
Hannah came over at 2 to work on our FLA project. We had to find an English reciepe, translate it, then make it. So, there was purchasing of ingredients while the Flames lost 3-1. =( That was depressing, but what are you going to do?
Anyways, Hannah and I made very yummy Lamb with grape leaves, and Turkish Delight. Quite a fine meal, if I do say so myself. Rather simple, I'll send the reciepe to those who want it.
Sean, call me, and i'll get you the playlist.
Quotes:
"Don't go to University, it sucks." - Mom
"Stop drifting!" (Nils) "Nils, you're on drift mode!" (Haley and Kelsey)
"Why are we handicapped?" - Kelsey (After Nils accidentally clicked "Handicap, Yes" in a Wii game)
From now on, people gets points and other prizes if they guess where my titles (if they are quotes) come from. 20 points today.

Saturday, April 14, 2007

"You've gotta be interested, you're a whore!"

Today was tiring, to say the least. Up at like, 7:45, in order to leave at 8:30 for a 9 o'clock piano make-up lesson. I've got a referee clinic on Tuesday, so I'll be missing my normal lesson. Well, that could've probably gone better, but then again, I could've practiced my scales. I dislike scales, no matter the instrument.
Then I had some aptitude tests. I'm not going to describe the reason to you all, but those of you I trust, know it. Anyways, they took pretty much the whole day. 10:30 till 3:30. I'm not going to describe them to you, but there was one questionnaire I had to fill out, and one question was, "I get calls from popular movies stars."
*twitch* I'm pretty sure I don't.
Ridiculous question. It's hard to keep your mind from wandering there. I know that I thought long and hard about Sean. I know what I did was the best for our friendship, and for the Keepers, but it's the hardest thing I've had to do in a while.
Anyways, when I came home, I discovered that Sean called me! Finally I got to talk to him for the first time in three weeks. So much has happened, that I've needed someone to listen and understand.
He's told me some stories from Florida, and even though half the time I was only half-listening, I still didn't get it. Does that make sense? Sorry kid, I'm just preoccupied.
I've discovered that I almost always misspell the word "swell". Yes, I know, I'm retarded. I spelt it "sweel". Shut up.
So I realized how much being in a relationship means to me, I've totally forgotten.
Fifty points to whoever can tell me what the title is from!! Okay, fifty points, a hug and chocolate.

Friday, April 13, 2007

Bonus.

I love randomly(or not) reciting "Forehead Shavecut" with Spencer, Kurt and Steven. And the fact that we know every word. And I like that I know "End of the World" and "Ultimate Showdown of Ultimate Destiny" too.
I love you flash videos.

Steam rising from the sidewalks of New Orleans after an evening rain.

Current Mood - Tired, but happy.
Current Music - Concerning Charlie Horse - Great Big Sea

Well, this has been quite an interesting past few days. I've actually had a decent time, although I admit, I crashed a couple times.
School was relativly boring, although I did kind of patch it up with my friends. Except Glenn still hates me. And I still eat in the debate room, mainly cause it's just fun in there. You never know when we'll errupt into a random argument.
Kelsie had a bit of a bad week, and I feel bad, because mine was really good, for exact opposite reasons. *hug* Love lives of high-schoolers are too complicated for me.
Well, Sean comes back tonight, which will make me incredibly happy. It's hard being away from your best friend!! And I'm allowed to go to Alyssa's birthday party, so it'll be good times! I get to see my two best friends again.
On and even brighter side, Tim asked me out on Wednesday, which did make me happy, but then Kelsie's thing didn't work out. =( Then my mom tells me I can't go out tonight, cause there was no real way to get me there. But w/e. My life won't end.
Playing test in Band on Wednesday. I was actually okay, I got 8+, 8. Which is around 80% I think. Then, just like at rehearsal the day before, my stomach cramped so badly that I could play at all. Not fun, especially when we're playing Palimpsest, which, for those of you who know, is a crazy horn part at the 6/8 time change.
I've discovered that I actually CAN text, but I don't know my plan, so I don't use it, not until my dad tells me how much I'm allowed to. =D But I can recieve, those of you who don't expect a text back.
I rediscovered my love for good 90s rock over Spring Break. John Hiatt (from whom my title is taken) and Tom Cochrane, mostly. And I've rediscovered my wonderful Beatles. I'm pretty much addicted to "I Feel Fine", "Day Tripper", and "Ticket to Ride", which were never really songs I liked. It's very good, because I need to NOT get addicted to Panic! At The Disco.
Gym class sucked yesterday and today. We had a personal trainer yesterday, and now my back is really sore from the stuff he made us do. My upper arms too. Then today, we were playing soccer outside, and I accidentally slide-tackled David. His knee hit mine right where I bend it, and i've now got a bruise that hurts quite a bit. =(
I have a comic that everyone must get addicted to. www.xkcd.com It updates every Monday, Wednesday and Friday. READ IT. a webcomic of sarcasm, romance, science and language. <3
I went to Battle of the Bands final today, GO SKAZILLA!! They were awesome, as per usual. And actually, the band after them was pretty decent.
So, I love David Hodges, he's an amazing person. <3
'Tis all children.

Quote of the day: "Yeah, I love him too, a lot..." Erik, after he's talking about his dad, and someone yells, "I love him!"

Monday, April 9, 2007

A proof is a proof!

Current Mood - Pretty happy.
Current Music - None.

Ahh, Spring Break. Pretty nice, good weather, time away from everybody else. Helped me think, and I'm not really in a blogging mood.
Sean's new quote: So you speak French? - Random Cruise member after learning Sean is from Canada.
Sean, call me, je t'aime.